Paperback | 336 pages

In his twisty, gritty, profoundly movingNew York Timesbestselling-debutalso called mandatory reading and selected as an Editors Choice by theNew York TimesAdam Silvera brings to life a charged, dangerous near-future summer in the Bronx.

In the months after his fathers suicide, its been tough for sixteen-year-old Aaron Soto to find happiness againbut hes still gunning for it. With the support of his girlfriend Genevieve and his overworked mom, hes slowly remembering what that might feel like. But grief and the smile-shaped scar on his wrist prevent him from forgetting completely.

When Genevieve leaves for a couple of weeks, Aaron spends all his time hanging out with this new guy, Thomas. Aarons crew notices, and theyre not exactly thrilled. But Aaron cant deny the happiness Thomas brings or how Thomas makes him feel safe from himself, despite the tensions their friendship is stirring with his girlfriend and friends. Since Aaron cant stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound feelings for him, he considers turning to the Leteo Institutes revolutionary memory-alteration procedure to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.

Why does happiness have to be so hard?

Silvera managed to leave me smiling after totally breaking my heart. Unforgettable.
Becky Albertalli, author ofSimon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda

Adam Silvera explores the inner workings of a painful world and he delivers this with heartfelt honesty and a courageous, confident handA mesmerizing, unforgettable tour de force.
John Corey Whaley, National Book Award finalist and author ofWhere Things Come BackandNoggin